Daughters: 3 Sons: 4

There is an old proverb (who sees the hungry graves). But now these examples become a reality. Yes, what's life? Who knows what pains a life may have to face in this reality? Will someone understand?. Oh, I hoped that life wouldn’t be so disloyal. These are tears of regret that are coming from her eyes which she expressed when I gave her the means for a new life.

I always hoped to have a happy life and always wanted to live with much happiness. I hoped to live comfortably with my husband. Humans have many wishes but some of them never achieve their goals. Only God knows about the future of humans and their destiny.

When I looked at Dilbar, I thought that she was only a body and that her soul had gone. I thought to myself that am I dreaming. I was depressed in her painful sea. When I saw her, she was crying, and then she started to present her life story with a vibrating voice.

“I am a woman who tolerates lots of pains and sorrows in my life. When I was at my father's home, our economic condition was very bad which, it seemed as though there was no limit. My father had a mental illness and was an impatient person. He was always beating us and I often cried and asked myself why was our living condition is so bad? My father was a very oppressive person. He beat my mom a lot. My mom was suffering very greatly from her life and he always told us to all go away from his life. He told us that if someone were to come he would marry us all off to become free from all of us. That very thing happened. I was about 14 years old when someone came and my father said yes for them without asking me. I was not satisfied with this marriage. I wasn’t able to say anything and they married me with to that man. When I went to my husband’s house, there was fear in my heart. I was afraid of my husband. I was very small. He was an oppressive person. He frequently beat me without any reason. Their economic condition was worse than ours. My husband was a very irresponsible person. Some nights we had no food to eat. During that time I was pregnant. Sometimes my husband was working, but sometimes he wasn’t. He always ate outside of the home but I was left hungry at home. He wasn’t paying attention whether to have a wife or not. Even while there wasn’t a piece of bread to eat, I had no ability to work somewhere. My husband was the only person who brought food and had income. He was illiterate. He had a cart with which he sold fruits but it became damaged. For several days he had no income to start another kind of work. He was doing hired work but had no income. With money borrowed from his friends, he started another kind of work but again he lost this too. Our condition became even more critical I had to prepare food from the leaves of trees. He was not giving me permission to beg. I even lost my one baby because of not eating anything. (Now it looks like hungry graves). Now its 21 years into our marriage. I don’t have a private house. Now I want to have a charity house because I don’t have the ability to pay the house rent. There should be a ruined house that we could only live in or even it could be a tent.”

She said that her life had so many problems that she didn’t think that she was a human being. She was very needy. Then she thought to herself that she had to do something. Then she got loan from AWC and started a small business. She was making jam and her husband was selling it in the market. His weekly income is about 600 af and from the benefit of his income, he was paying the house expenses. And besides that she was sewing blankets and her weekly income was about 500 af. From her income she was paying all the expenses of her children and also paying the weekly installment of the loan. They were both working together. From their income they were paying the house expenses and covering the needs of her children. Her husband could pay his entire loan of the little which he got from his friends. Now they are feeling a little happy in their lives.

Her life completely changed. She completed the needs of her home such as curtains, carpet, a mattress, food items and a TV. And she decided to save some money for her future expenses.

Yes, I was under the violence of my husband. Their economic condition was very bad. I was suffering very greatly from my life. He was an irresponsible person. He had no sense of humor. But now I am independent and don't need their assessment.

First.

With the loan I am buying fruits and making jam at home and my husband is selling it at the market. And also I am buying sewing materials such as tent, cotton, cord and other sewing materials. From our income we both cover our house expenses and I am paying the weekly installment of the loan.

Weekly 600 af. from jam, 500 af from blankets

I have seen many changes after receiving the loan. At first I was very needy and I didn’t have household materials. My children couldn’t go to school because I couldn’t pay for their school expenses. Now I can cover my expenses. My husband paid his entire loan back. I can pay the weekly installment of the loan.. I can cover my children's needs. I sent my children back to school